euraka part 2

some time back i entitled a post this when i had a moment of inspiration. many such God-moments have come since then when His truth becomes real to me.

today i was talking witha co-worker about why my service at church wasn't a drudgery to me. it's because i love the people. i have come to embrace them with my heart and so i'm happy to extend myself even beyond the ways i would extend myself for a stranger.

what if this concept is something i need to apply to my workplace and subordinates? maybe i need to give them direct contact with donors or with partners overseas in immeadiate ways on an ongoing basis. it sounds so simple now as i write it down but it is so counter-intuitive to the focus we have on specialization in the workplace sometimes. maybe that's because we divide work horizontally based on tasks instead of vertically based on overall project goals.

in this all i also ask myself about my future. i love God's people and want to see them grow. i want more and more people to come to that same love of God. i've always sensed that nuturing or sheperding nature in myself. this week as i lead communion, share the welcome time and talk about small groups for 25 minutes i ponder it all again.

does this mean i should pursue a vocation focused on something that pulls in my writing and speaking skills in a pastoral way? i don't know but right now i think i would love that. i hope that i'm not trying to be my father and grandfather, who were both pastors, in all this. there is something though about that service that seems so natural to me.

or maybe... maybe a hundred other things. maybe i just need to learn how to serve in these ways as a fellow servant and not as the one in charge. lay ministry has great value...

once again, i find my heart opened beyond it's normal limits by a combination of events this week. i think it's time to pray.