our hope

i hope that in my posts here i have not been not overdramatic or too self-absorbed. blogs are some wierd mesh of personal revelation and public display that i have not yet mastered the flow of. and in truth i am a person who cannot look too long at just one point without considering how that point fits into the web of life in which we exist. i think that will help as i continue to develop my writing but it makes personal expression challenging sometimes. my friend at work jokes that i never answer a questsion with a black and white answer, and thought it's funny to joke about, he's right. to truly explore an issue i need to talk through it with someone or myself.

i say all this because there have been many days here when i have said here that i am battling on or retaining hope in spite of circumstances. this is not to minimize the joy of life. i'm listening to a beautiful song by a band called Macrosick that is built on some great guitar riffs. i just got back from playing a non-sensical card game with a friends daughter, shooting pool and sharing a meal with my community of faith. today i was able to see a glimmer of a light at the end of one long tunnel i've been clambering down at work. today a friend returns to people she's deeply missed. these are all cause for joy and i will not let frustrations minmize them. we recognize to few times just all that God has provided us and is doing on our behalf. not tonight. not here. not now. my hope is in an eternal God and these passing joys will pale in light of what is to come, whatever that is.